Our Lethal Pull Her Down Syndrome
The other morning, on a Saturday, I was minding my own bae business
and preparing to water my lawn and veggie garden when I heard a voice greet me
in a whisper. It came from my neighbor’s balcony. So I looked up and hesitantly
acknowledged her greeting and stayed gazed at her to say ‘What do you want?’
She starred back, hurriedly looked sideways and to the
horizon, over her shoulder and then back at me. This time my facial expression
was in capital letters “What do you want FROM ME?”
She repeated the same
indecisive body movements. I was confuzzled – firstly neighbors in this part of
the world don’t greet neighbors just for
the just... nje! We don't have time. Secondly, I consider greetings by strangers
a nuisance.
So, you can imagine how at that moment I was hating my nameless
neighbor (I honestly don’t know her name) for disturbing my emotions with her
rubbish greeting.
As I carried on with my chores, she whispered again. This
time it was worse because she’d added the word ‘Sisi’...ugh!
'Sisi please call the police for me', she whispered with a
calm nervousness. I asked, 'Why?'. She bowed her head slightly to show me a
patch on her head, ‘Can you see? he pulled out my hair. He's pulling out my
hair’.
I quickly sign languaged her to say I’d do as she’d
requested and went inside to call the cops. I returned moments later and
signaled her that all was on track. She sign language thanked me quick.
In the
background behind her I could hear a man’s voice steady demanding answers to
basic questions; ‘Why did you run out of the car when you saw me coming? Why?
Just tell me why because..’. I immediately switched off because my threshold
for such misogynistic BS is zero.
Take a stand
When I returned to the house I narrated the whole story to
Proud. Proud is the young lady who comes in on request to help us with the
ironing and house cleaning. She was all sorts of annoyed at the neighbor; “Ubizela indoda amaphoyisa. Uyahlanya yini?” (Is
she seriously calling the cops on her man? Is she mad?”
Me: “Urm…” [I wasn’t sure where she was going with this].
“Indoda ayibizelwa
amaphoyisa. Indoda uyayishaya strong! Nishayane nize nikhathale. Uyabona la?
(as she pointed to a scar on her jawline), yangiluma
indoda yami sishayana strong! Sengiyihlula.
Siyashana ke futhi” (Translation: You do not call the cops on your man; you
fight him back to the bitter end. You see this scar? My man bit me during a
fight in which I was winning. We fight frequently).
I honestly hadn’t seen this one coming. So I was just like
“But Proud!”
I was utterly bewildered. She was equally shocked when I
told her; “With me, if you dare put your hands on me it would be the first and
last time...it's over – and that’s definitely via police station and magistrate
court. I don’t care if the trial goes on
for a year or if the docket eventually grows feet as is often the case. Thereafter,
you do not exist; I will ignore you until you even start to doubt your own
existence.”
Proud: “Sisi, usho
kuthi awubekezeli? Mosi uzom’khumbula? Mina ngiyabekezela. Ngazitjela nje
ukuthi ngihlala nehlanya. Losisi lona nje ebusuku naye uzobe ajola futhi nayo
lendonda yakhe ayibizele amaphoyisa” (So, you’re not a patient woman for
your man? But you'll miss him whilst he’s in jail? Myself, I’m stay because I
long told myself that my man is a juvenile crazy man. This neighbor of yours…at
night she will be with the same man on whom she's called the cops.”)
I silently digested all that this woman had just said. You
see, Proud spoke with so much conviction and authority over her situation and
the subject in general it was difficult not to admire her. In fact, for a
moment there, she may have had me doubt my own views. LOL! But seriously, when I compared Proud to
the woman I had encountered outside on the balcony, Proud was the winner for
me.
I share Proud's views to a certain extent - I will also not
be a bystander to bullying of any form. Never! Where I differ with Proud is
making such brutality a part of my lifestyle, in the name of love.
What I admired though is that she has a definitive personal stand
on this subject.
Proud sounded like she's always known how she would react to a
violent lover - perhaps she's learnt that along the way of her life. So Proud
will not exhaust her neighbors’ energies or state resources on matters that she
is committed to resolving herself.
Self-Sabotage vs. Self-Love
The lady on the balcony on the other hand… I mean, I
couldn’t quite put a finger on it, but even when I went inside to make the call
to the cops on her behalf, I could sense that she’s at step 1 of doing what the
police always complain about - what makes them end up refusing to take
statements from women who report violence by their male partners.
The police arrived within minutes and spent hours and hours
with the couple. At this point I really wasn’t interested because I knew this
meant my earlier hunch and Proud’s sentiments about this woman’s situation were
accurate. When she came to thank me later that evening, her weave was back
flowing like Princess Sofia’s hair. Her man had driven with her to the salon to
get it fixed. She still lives with him.
I’m sharing this experience because next week Swaziland joins the world in rolling-out the annual awareness campaign of 16 days of activism against gender-based
violence. Often, messages from this
campaign are targeted at men – demanding them to STOP hitting us, raping us,
killing us and generally hurting our dignity as women.
I support this messaging
and I wish it would actually call men out according to their professions for
instance, and not just ‘men’ – so that even the raping lawyer and architect,
the physically abusive cabinet minister, molesting pastor and teacher etc. can
find it hard to dismiss such personal messaging.
Furthermore, I encourage you my sisters – young girls and
women to always know who you are. This will help you know where you stand not
just on relationships but world matters too.
You must know, even when you’re
not in a romantic relationship what your stance on gender-based violence is,
and what you would do if ever faced with it – this is what I tell my favorite
niece. Tati. Titsandze. (Know your strength. Love yourself). We can’t be
instigating the PhD (pull her down) syndrome on ourselves.
If you are currently in a violent relationship, I can’t say
I know what you’re going through or why you are going through it, but please,
try and get out – you can still restore your dignity – you can ‘start living
from your power and not your brokenness’ as Iyanla Vanzant rightly puts it.
And
you know you are powerful, as a woman and as a human being. Womandla! Viva
that.
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